paradise as I see it

I have to stop a minute and talk about my Mom. I have to thank God each day for Christian Parents, who saw that I was raise in church, in a Christian environment. My Mom was always there for me, and as she is sick now, and so weak she doesn't get up out of the except for meals and to go to the restroom, I feel helpless for there seems to be nothing that I can do. My Dad is taking care of her and this is running him down. I go up there to see them, and take the Grandbaby to seem them, this seems to cheer Dad up some. Which is good, it helps keep his mind off his problems for a while anyway. She has started wanting to give her things away, which is depressing for me, it makes me think she is giving up the fight. What do you do to keep your spirit high when you see this happening. It is so sad to feel this helpless. It is probably time for the Grandchildren and Great grandchildren to go see her, while they can and her mind is half way her. As each day you can see her mind slipping more and more. I go as often as I can now to be with her while I can. Alzheimers is just part of her problems, as her kidneys aren't working properly, she is in pain constantly it seems, the Doctors seem to think this is all caused by her lupus. Which went untreated for to long. Lupus is a disease that can strike so many different ways, so many different organs. There is not a single lab test that can determine if a person has lupus. You have to have several lab test run and the results analyzed, these test are used to monitor the immune system. No one knows what causes lupus. Scientists think that people are born with the genes to develop lupus and the something brings on or "triggers" the disease and symptoms. Some lupus can be brought on by drugs, others by genetics. Also each persons case is different, different people different results and symptoms. For more info on lupus go to www.lupus.org.